Excuses, problems, difficulties, situations, perspectives, the pressure, the pain, the weakness, the fears, the insecurities, the losses, forget about it, forget about it all.

Do what you set out to do, everything you want is a dream away, everything you want is on the other side of fear. Conquer your fears, be your own master.

Take in the hate, take in the pain, take in the hardships, take everything they throw at you, and use your success to throw it back at them.

Have confidence in yourself and your abilities. Radiate that confidence. Don’t let anything or anybody get you down. Hold your head high. 

Never give up, not through the defeats, not through the tears, not through the heartbreaks, not through the failures, keep going and get yourself back up.

Give it your all, give it your absolute best. Feel the adrenaline, feel the blood rush, destroy your opponent, crush your goals.

Do it for your people, do it for your pride, you’re never going to know if you never even try. Do it to shut them up, do it to prove them wrong, do it for the ones who want to see you fail.

Use their hate, use the bricks thrown at you to make yourself stronger, better, more determined. Don’t lose hope, don’t lose faith.

Everything you want is coming to you. Give it some time, have patience. Work hard to silence, let your success make the noise. Let their love make you strong, let their hate make you unstoppable.

If you are the best, play like you’re the best, act like you’re the best. If you aren’t the best, work until you become the best. Work until your idols become your rivals. Work until your signature becomes an autograph.

Hustle until your haters ask if you’re hiring. Take the pressure, handle it. Don’t let the pressure affect you, forget about the people watching.

Shut everything out, and concentrate on giving your absolute best.

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‘I love being me’

I love living my life, I love doing what I do. I find it funny when some people call me self obsessed. Funny, because they don’t really know me. Those who live with me and are close to me know how much I like to see others happy, how I love to see my friends content. One of the main reasons I’m writing is because of how overwhelmed I am at the response of people for my previous blog. I felt both proud and happy when I read all the countless messages I got from people thanking me for motivating them and inspiring them, just by being myself. 

At this stage of my life, I want to push myself to work harder for the things I have coming up in my life. I consider myself a winner. Wanting to win all the time, that’s always been my mentality. I try to stay focus, it’s not easy, but nothing worth having comes easy. If life was meant to be easy, we wouldn’t have been born crying. 

I’m very competitive at things I love to do and that’s never going to change. Obviously I’m growing up and starting to become more mature but I don’t think I’ll ever completely change that aspect of my life. The way I think doesn’t change, I have faith in my abilities and in what I do. 

I don’t alter my behavior for anyone. I take in the criticism from strangers that I get, but I don’t let it get to my head. Those close to me know who I really am, my personality, my character. I’m very close to my family and friends, they’re my rock. 

I don’t pay attention to what is written and said about me, everyone’s entitled to their opinion. However, lots of lies have been spread about me, that’s the price of people knowing you, I guess. But sometimes they form such strong conclusions without even knowing me personally, they forget that in that way, I’m a normal person, I have feelings too. 

I’m a well balanced person, I’ve learnt not to change myself because of what other people think. You won’t get anywhere in life without overcoming plenty of obstacles at first. I used to cry a lot when I was a little boy, I still cry, crying is good, get emotions out. 

I have no time for people who lie to me or are disloyal. Those are the worst traits anyone can ever have, in my opinion. I don’t like talking about my private life, I don’t like drawing attention to it but I don’t hide anything either. People can go on with the gossip if they want to- I’m not interested. 

I’ve been getting a lot of messages lately saying ‘I saw you here’, I saw you there but I was too scared to say hi, can I have a picture with you’? I honestly want to say that’s flattering because that’s not who I am, I’m not a celebrity, you want to talk to me? Come talk. You want a picture? Let’s take one. 

There are some days when it’s not easy being Varun Khadri, some days when I want to do certain stuff but I can’t, sometines I just want my privacy, you don’t get everything you want, that’s life. 

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It is Diwali night, the rest of the world is busy bursting crackers and performing other festivities, but not me. I simply do not care about these traditionalities. I know that because everyone else was occupied, I’d have the gym and the court to myself for the night. I care about a very selective and an exclusive amount of people and things. 

So, as I got dressed and entered the lift to go to the gym, my mind was riddled with thoughts which even the loud sound of crackers couldn’t drown out. This night was going to be important for me. I had to introspect a lot. 

Sports is something which I hold very close to my heart. I enjoy different kinds of sports like Football, Badminton, Tennis, Squash, Basketball and Table Tennis. I’ve loved Badminton since my childhood but I’ve found fierce passion for tennis and Football lately. I want to play all the time, the better I get at it, the more I start to love it. 

However, in the past few months, sports has been very disappointing for me. There have been losses and embarrassing mistakes at important moments. However I can only hope to learn from these experiences. I’m someone who hates to give up, no matter what. I’m going to try to get better everyday and train harder. 

I now think of the possiblity of playing for a football club in Bangalore and giving a shot at some tennis tournaments. I’ve never done either ever before but I know I’m good enough. These possibilities are exciting and I will be giving some serious thought to them in the coming days. I am nervous but I know that great things can happen when you step out of your comfort zone. 

I have a few MUNs coming up too and I feel ready, I feel ready to work hard, I feel ready to get back to my best. If I have one goal in life, it is this: To become the hardest working person. I have a burning desire to chase that goal endlessly, but my ambition is handicapped by my laziness. That’s something I need to work on. 

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It’s okay

For anyone needing any sort of motivation:

If you are going through some kind of hardship in your life, the only thing you should know is this: It’s going to be fine. It will eventually be okay. It’s a cliché but it’s true. Whatever you’re going through: sadness, depression, loss, grief, it will eventually end. God gives the toughest of battles to his strongest soldiers. Have some faith, it is important to believe that you will get out of it and get out of it stronger. Life is hard, it is meant to be hard. If life was meant to be easy, we wouldn’t be born crying. Concentrate on being strong, you are much stronger than you think you are. You might feel like it’s the end of the world, but it’s not,  you might feel something which is so bad that I can’t even describe it, but that feeling will also pass, you will feel better after a few days or weeks or months. Nothing is permanent in life, not even the bad stuff. Don’t be scared of what’s coming your way, face it in the bravest way you can. Your strength isn’t determined by how hard you can hit, it’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. 

I strongly believe in the saying: Don’t strive only for success, strive for excellence. Once you achieve excellence in whatever you do, success will automatically come to you. Work hard. If you want to be the best, if you want to succeed, you must work hard, that is the ONLY way. Ask any successful person, they will tell you the same thing, there is no way around it. Hardwork is the one unifying factor of all successful people. To be the best, you must work the hardest, harder than everybody else. Visualise your goal and what you’re willing to do for it. You must not only be interested in achieving it, but also committed. Commitment means doing whatever it will take. Commitment means making sacrifices. If you want to get somewhere in life, you must learn to leave other stuff aside for a while. 

Dream big. While it is obviously practical to have realistic goals, don’t handicap your dreams. Have dreams so big that they scare you. It doesn’t matter if others don’t understand them. It is your dream, not theirs. Make sure that your dreams make small minded people uncomfortable. Be stubborn about your goals. Don’t let people tell you that you can’t do something, prove the doubters wrong. Always stay positive. Do what you love, have a clear vision in your mind about what you want to do with your life, the kind of person you want to be. 

Find ways. Life and other people will throw plenty of obstacles at you. But it is essential that you find ways to get over those obstacles in order to achieve your goal. Be prepared to fight, fight your way through anything and everything thrown at you. It is important that you constantly look for ways to overcome difficulties. 

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17 Years

This took me 27 minutes to write, after writing, I quickly read and edit my blogs once and then immediately publish it. This ensures originality of thought and helps me effectively convey what I want to say in a direct and transparent approach. 

This blog is about myself, about me and my life, about what I want to say to all of you.  It might seem narcissistic to some of you, to write about oneself, but I  like it, I enjoy it. I turned 17 recently and I couldn’t help but recap in by mind about all that I’ve been through. This is going to really honest and straight from my heart. 

My childhood any my family: I am a Maharashtrian, I was born in Pune. I was born into a middle class family and I continue to be that way. The reason I have had money to go out everyday and to go to fancy places is not because my parents are rich, they are not, I have earned that money, by myself. I love being independent.  I have a sister who is 5 years younger to me. She can be quite a brat, but I’ve learnt to love her. My parents are one of the most interesting people I have ever known in my life. My relation with them has been quite rocky since the very beginning with lots of fights and arguments but it has taken a turn for the better in these past few years. I’m quite a bad child to be honest, I cross my boundaries sometimes when it comes to things that I say to them and don’t listen to them, that’s something I need to improve on. Despite all that, my parents continue to be the definition of home for me, I cannot live without them at all, psychologically. I’ve realised over time that family will always be the most persistent thing in one’s life. 

My schooling : I have been educated for a year in Abu Dhabi and for 10 long years in Bangalore. If there’s one thing I can say firmly about school, it is this: I absolutely hate it. Not any school in particular or any subject or any teacher, I just hate the Indian system of education. I hate the concept of one being judged based on his/her marks. I do not understand how marks are used to define a child’s academic capability. Exams these days only check our memory, not our intelligence. I bunk more classes than I attend, I CANNOT stand the thought of just sitting in one place forcibly and listening to someone talk, when I’d rather be doing anything else in the world. I am the worst student you’ll ever imagine, the only things I do in school are practice sports or other extra curriculars. Obviously, by now, you can guess how much I hate studying. Surprisingly though, without studying or attending classes, I get better marks than most people do after working their heads off. I have been told that I am extremely capable in academics but I don’t see the point of being capable at something I hate to do. 

My relationships: over the past year or so, I’ve learnt a lot about relationships and friendships through both bad and good experiences. I acknowledge that I have hurt people and I have also been through the worst heartbreak which crushed me but let’s leave that aside. First and foremost: Love is a beautiful feeling, don’t EVER lose your belief in love or faith because of what someone or something did to you. Love is so much more than what happened to you. I have had the best memories of my life with a person and the worst memories of my life because of the same person. Now, that doesn’t make me bitter or angry. It is what it is, it is important to leave the past where it belongs. If you’re going through any kind of emotional pain or hurt: remember, it will eventually be okay, that might seem impossible right now but trust me, nothing is permanent, not even sorrow. It happens to many people,you are not alone. Be strong, always. I have heard many people calling me names which deem that I have played with others’ feelings and cheated on people, I do not know why people do so because I have never done anything of that sort. Yes, I have had flings, but I am also a very honest person and hold loyalty in the highest decree of importance. I am a virgin and plan on staying one until I find the right person. Lots of people form strong negative opinions about me based on the stuff they hear before they meet me or even speak to me. I have learnt to live with that. It used to bother me but it doesn’t anymore because after people meet me or get to know me, they can see the kind of person that I am and they tell me how they were wrong to misjudge me. 

Sports: I have loved sports so much right from my childhood. Until I was about 10 years old, I was really into Cricket but even as a kid, I realised that pursuing cricket was an impossible dream in a country like India. Now, I’m obsessed with Badminton and Football. I’ve played at state and national level. I love it, I love playing and I love winning more than anything else. I want to be the best. I always want to be the best at what I do. I want to start playing football professionally and dream of playing for Manchester United one day. I love the team, I love that club and everything about it, I’m so much more than a fan. I idolise Roger Federer, Cristiano Ronaldo and David De Gea. I respect them to massive amounts for the people they are and the work that they do.

Popularity- I’m going to be extremely blunt here. ‘Popularity’ is not important, it is extremely delusional. I’ve been asked countless times how it feels to be ‘popular’, I don’t consider myself popular. All these followers and likes are given so much undue importance in today’s society, none of it really matters at the end of the day. People just assume so often that since according to them I’m ‘popular’, I have plenty of friends and my life is all easy going and happy. No, no freaking way. I have my low points too, I feel lonely at times too, it’s natural you know. Social identity and status is colossally overhyped. Humility is very important. Your attitude when you have nothing and your humbleness when you have everything speaks volumes about you.  

Criticism- It’s important to know about one’s bad qualities, only then can you improve them. I’m an extremely lazy person, sure I always  work at something which I love to do, but others things, the laziness just takes over me. I can also be a very difficult person, it’s very hard to understand me fully, I’m very complicated. I get angry or irritated because of small things sometimes, but I’ve learnt to channel the anger appropriately. 

Gratitude- To be grateful is essential, according to me. I thank God everyday for giving me all that I have today, for this life.  So many people are suffering in the world, appreciate what you have. I am very grateful for the people in my life too, people who are close to me, people who work with me everyday, people who have stuck by me through my best and worst. Even the people who I see everyday, everybody who contributes to my life, in any way possible, I am grateful. 

A wrap up – Over these past few months, I have gotten messages from many people saying that I inspire them and motivate them, just by being myself. I couldn’t be happier. I’m so glad that I make a positive impact on your lives. I am not in the habit of helping people a lot but I do like to motivate others and inspire them. Positivity is important, good vibes are important. A few people say they look up to me, that just gives me more reason to be myself and constantly improve and be the best person that I possibly can be.  Strive to be the best version of yourself. 

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‘The two most important days in your life are: the day you were born and the day you find out why’. All of us are put on this Earth and given the life that we have, for a reason.  However, different people take different amounts of time to figure what the reason is, to figure out what their purpose in life is. At any given point of time, there are countless people who are living, but have no idea why, who do not know what they want to do with their lives.

As scary as not knowing what to do with your life sounds, it’s a perfectly okay stage to be at. Figuring out who you are and what you want to do in life can prove to be one of the hardest tasks ever.  ‘What is the meaning of life? What is the point of everything?’ These questions have popped up in our heads at some point or another in our lives. While there is no definite correct answer to these questions, the true meaning of life becomes infinitely more clear when a person has a purpose in their lives. By purpose, I do not mean what you want to do tomorrow or day after or next week, what I also do not mean by ‘purpose’ is ambition, ambition can sometimes be a far-fetched conundrum, whereas a purpose is something which drives you forward in life, which becomes your first thought when you wake up in the morning, something which you are willing to devote your entire life to.

Often, not having a clear idea of what you want to pursue in life, is frowned upon in society. I can say quite frankly that I have not found my purpose in life yet, and this prospect excites me more than anything else. I mean, look at it in this way, I have got my entire life ahead of me, I can choose my own path, do things that I’m the most passionate about, go to countless new places and meet countless new people, the possibilities are endless! When you look at life from this perspective, it automatically becomes exciting.  In life, not many people will understand your purposes and the paths you tread on, but that’s okay. The independence and the beauty of having individualistic ideas and purposes is that they are entirely your own. It doesn’t matter if others don’t like you, to succeed in life, you need to like you, you must love yourself. It is your chosen path and yours alone, forget others, you need to believe in yourself and your choices.

Listening to your heart- As cliché as this phrase sounds, I feel that it is an extremely underrated ideology. In order to achieve whatever you want to in life, it is absolutely vital to do what you love and love what you do. These days I find myself around teens who do things because their parents want to, their friends want them to or  because they feel like it’s the safer option. Screw what they want, screw safety, take risks, if you are passionate about something, go ahead and do that, don’t let anybody stop you from doing that.  Doing what you’re passionate about gives you happiness, and if you aren’t doing things for happiness, well then what the hell are you even living for? Everybody wants to live happily. 

If you do not start doing what you want, others will keep making you do what they want you to do. Everybody finds their purpose in life at some point or another, but for that, you need to go after what you want, you need to break those shackles, come out of that shell, set some goals for yourself and relentlessly pursue them. Go after your own desires, create your own paths,  find your purpose in life, find something to live for and find something worth dying for. 

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| For the dreamers, for believers, for the innovators, for the creators, for anybody who’s ever inspired me |
I came home late one night, intoxicated ,with my body throbbing and mind full of toxins, some external, some internal, self made demons. Most of the demons that kill us mentally are our own creations. 

Animals get killed once by hunters or predators, they have no mental accentuation, alas humans are unlucky that way you know. Death kills us once, our mental discords kill us everyday.

But we have to understand that things trouble us only because we grant them the power to. We let unnecessary stuff bother us. We spend our time worrying and doubting. Most of the things we worry about never even happen. Live now, worry later . 

Most of us have worried about what path to take in our lives at one point or another.  Think back to all the times you felt lost and hopeless, and then think about where you are right now. Everything changes, nothing lasts, whether good or bad. Next time when you’re stressed about your life, know that : You’re never given anything you can’t handle, God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but eventually you’ll get there. If it’s meant for you, you will procur it.  Destiny and destination have a common root for good reason. 

Let nobody except yourself be able to influence your emotions, don’t let somebody’s darkness dim your light, it’s your story, they might not understand, it’s always a matter of perspective. 

You’re not always all you want yourself to be but you’ve come a long way from who you were, think to yourself: What if you were the same person a year ago? Everybody wants to turn back time but nobody wants to be a person from their past. 

This is for everybody going through a seemingly impossible phase of their lives: Remember, it’s just a phase. Nothing’s permanent, not even your troubles. It’s okay, it’s going to be alright, it may not seem like it right now, but things are going to get better at some point of time, I promise. Don’t lose your strength. You are stronger than you think you are. What’s broken can be mended. What’s hurt can be healed. No matter how dark it is, the sun is going to shine again.

A shoutout to everybody trying to get their life together: Working on yourself is one of the hardest and most testing parts of life, wherever you are, keep working, keep going. 

Inspire ~ Be the change you want to see, everybody wants good changes but nobody wants to change. Inspire others to do better and be happier. Take charge, inspiring others is such an underrated activity. Personally, I get no greater pleasure than when somebody looks up to me, when they tell me that I impacted their lives positively. 

Be nice to everybody, they’ll be nice to you. Even after all the  cruel stories of atrocity that we hear and read , I assure you, there are more good people in this world than bad. Even after I’ve been backstabbed, broken, been lied to , had my name dragged through the mud countless times by people who don’t even know me personally, I BELIEVE, I believe that there’s good in this world. The optimistic way is really the only way I’ve known. 

For what it’s worth: It’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and satisfied with and if you find that your are not, you have the strength to start over. 

I hope that you don’t let the world condemn you for being too loud, for being too expressive, for being yourself, that you do not let it convince you to try to be perfect instead of real.

Given below is my most favorite quote ever: ‘This is life, people will screw  you over. You’ll fight with your family. You’ll witness things that will change you forever. You’ll blame lovers for things that old lovers did, you’ll lose best friends who you thought would stay by your side forever. You’ll come to realise that everyone has a past. You’ll cry, you’ll laugh and you’ll embarrass yourself. But then, you’ll find your very own moment where none of that matters, where you can sit back and realize that shit happens to the people who can handle it and this is who you are and that you can get through it. Accepting yourself and finding yourself, your purpose in life is the most satisfying feeling of all. ‘

WHAT OTHERS THINK OR ASSUME OF YOU SHOULD BE NONE OF YOUR CONCERN- Let them judge you. Let them misunderstand you. Let them gossip about you. Their opinions are NOT your problem. You stay kind, committed to love and free in your authenticity. No matter what they do or say, don’t you dare forget your worth or the truth of your beauty. 

Ten years from now, make sure that you can say that you chose your life and didn’t settle for it. 
So, do it. Ask yourself,  Is the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide, breathe in, breathe out and decide. 

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